[Poll] Mo|son can. my story of the last 9 years.
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Poll: Remember me?

Yes. (67%)

No. (28%)

Unsure. (6%)

Poll has ended (it ran for 14 days). 18 total votes.

It has been a long journey the last decade. Fraught with peril and terrible uncertainty. I won't keep you long (I'll keep you forever). So what happened in 2012 is that I tried to kill myself cause I was pretty messed up on cocaine and all over the place.

This was triggered by the loss of my cousin/BF Dave who went out West to make a better world. It was never good for him, he was in the Navy and his father beat him since he was 2. Used to lock him in the closet for hours. I hate his father and so does everyone else for doing that. Dave went to heroine cause his soul was tortured.

In 2012 in some park in Vancouver at 6am some jogger found him leaning against a try foaming at the mouth. Dave was a hardcore gambler and a genius but his demons he could never shake. Needless to say he passed away that morning cause he just wouldn't slow down.

This was around the time I stopped playing at drippys 2fort... and I must say, in my stats if you add up the hours i played drippys for 1 WHOLE year! ... WOW... I still have the callus on my lower right palm from all the dragging of my hand across the mouse pad. The little red tough bump lol.

So what happened with me is that I became hateful and angry even on drippys sometimes.. cause I had so bad losses of friends and family... SO for all of you who remember how I was I am no longer that guy... just all the good things you remember.

So I jumped off an overpass and broke my hip and fractured my skull. I recovered alowly from all that then I got cancer.. and it was stage 4 I was to 90% die... but.... no fought hard like a trooper and lived. IT LIVES!

So without dragging this on, I was think about coming to participate back to the forums and servers... I don't drink/smoke/do drugs.. nothing but soda and orange juice haha... I may even try to play sometime I think I can do it...

I just want to say I think about the old crew and how you people no matter how far you are away, we were a tight family and that meant alot to me. Always has. Why do you think I am here now? The tightest community on the net.. :D

So through my struggles and redemption I would like to infuse myself partially back to the community. I have been through hell and have actually died. So this shouldn't really be too difficult.

Mo|son. 2020
Welcome back dude, I always wondered if you were alright. Nice to see that you're still among us.
Hi Mo|son...I watched one of your Demo YouTube videos a couple weeks ago, brought back memories from the old days.

Mo|son Canadian wrote:
It has been a long journey the last decade. Fraught with peril and terrible uncertainty. I won't keep you long (I'll keep you forever). So what happened in 2012 is that I tried to kill myself cause I was pretty messed up on cocaine and all over the place.

This was triggered by the loss of my cousin/BF Dave who went out West to make a better world. It was never good for him, he was in the Navy and his father beat him since he was 2. Used to lock him in the closet for hours. I hate his father and so does everyone else for doing that. Dave went to heroine cause his soul was tortured.

In 2012 in some park in Vancouver at 6am some jogger found him leaning against a try foaming at the mouth. Dave was a hardcore gambler and a genius but his demons he could never shake. Needless to say he passed away that morning cause he just wouldn't slow down.

This was around the time I stopped playing at drippys 2fort... and I must say, in my stats if you add up the hours i played drippys for 1 WHOLE year! ... WOW... I still have the callus on my lower right palm from all the dragging of my hand across the mouse pad. The little red tough bump lol.

So what happened with me is that I became hateful and angry even on drippys sometimes.. cause I had so bad losses of friends and family... SO for all of you who remember how I was I am no longer that guy... just all the good things you remember.

So I jumped off an overpass and broke my hip and fractured my skull. I recovered alowly from all that then I got cancer.. and it was stage 4 I was to 90% die... but.... no fought hard like a trooper and lived. IT LIVES!

So without dragging this on, I was think about coming to participate back to the forums and servers... I don't drink/smoke/do drugs.. nothing but soda and orange juice haha... I may even try to play sometime I think I can do it...

I just want to say I think about the old crew and how you people no matter how far you are away, we were a tight family and that meant alot to me. Always has. Why do you think I am here now? The tightest community on the net.. :D

So through my struggles and redemption I would like to infuse myself partially back to the community. I have been through hell and have actually died. So this shouldn't really be too difficult.

Mo|son. 2020

There should have been a 'fuck yeah' we remember you. Good to hear from you dude...sucks what you went through, but glad you found yourself and your way back here :)
I thought of you the other day when I saw a Molson logo on the side of a building. For better or worse, all of the people here are more memorable than any of us give ourselves credit for.

You got dealt a bunch of shitty hands, and you stayed in the game. You should be proud of that. Whether you get back into TFC or not, that kind of trauma is incredibly difficult to process, move on from, and materialize into stability. Be kind to yourself, and don't be ashamed of asking for help when you need it from those around you.

Welcome back Mo|son! Your story may be long, but it is far from over. Continue living your life.

Hell yeah, we remember you, man! I'm glad you're still walking among us, and yeah, I had wondered what happened to you.

Some of older faces/names have moved on from here, but we've also gotten new ones added to the mix. But this community is still as tight as ever. Our little corner of the internet is still here, and going on.

Definitely hope you stick around, and that we will see you in the server.

Welcome back!
Welcome back Mo|!!!
Horrid story glad to see you made it through. God bless.
Welcome back and Merry Christmas.
Welcome back. I'm glad to hear you're doing better. That sounds like a real rough few years.

Old skool D2F demomen unite!
EnginGhent wrote:
I thought of you the other day when I saw a Molson logo on the side of a building. For better or worse, all of the people here are more memorable than any of us give ourselves credit for.

You got dealt a bunch of shitty hands, and you stayed in the game. You should be proud of that. Whether you get back into TFC or not, that kind of trauma is incredibly difficult to process, move on from, and materialize into stability. Be kind to yourself, and don't be ashamed of asking for help when you need it from those around you.

-[IBSC]-iLluSiON- wrote:
Welcome back. I'm glad to hear you're doing better. That sounds like a real rough few years.

Old skool D2F demomen unite!

Careful, Walnut might get upset with that statement... ?


Welcome back, Mo|son. I beat Stage 4 myself. Not a great club to be in, but better than the other one, yes? But with all that other shit AND 2020? Wow. Perhaps you should take another year off because I'm only just now beating some of your records.

Wow, you're the #12 flag capper on the server. I eagerly await seeing your skills.
Welcome back sir!
Mo|son... meet Fred. Fred is one of the best people we've got in the community nowadays. He's a good dude, and I will vouch for him until the cows come home to roost.

Not even joking. He's a solid team player, and you will enjoy having him on your team. Or you'll regret it if he's not.
Florist, how does Freds penis taste?
Ask your mom, all I could get out of her were moans and screams.
Mo|son Canadian wrote:
It has been a long journey the last decade. Fraught with peril and terrible uncertainty. I won't keep you long (I'll keep you forever). So what happened in 2012 is that I tried to kill myself cause I was pretty messed up on cocaine and all over the place.

This was triggered by the loss of my cousin/BF Dave who went out West to make a better world. It was never good for him, he was in the Navy and his father beat him since he was 2. Used to lock him in the closet for hours. I hate his father and so does everyone else for doing that. Dave went to heroine cause his soul was tortured.

In 2012 in some park in Vancouver at 6am some jogger found him leaning against a try foaming at the mouth. Dave was a hardcore gambler and a genius but his demons he could never shake. Needless to say he passed away that morning cause he just wouldn't slow down.

This was around the time I stopped playing at drippys 2fort... and I must say, in my stats if you add up the hours i played drippys for 1 WHOLE year! ... WOW... I still have the callus on my lower right palm from all the dragging of my hand across the mouse pad. The little red tough bump lol.

So what happened with me is that I became hateful and angry even on drippys sometimes.. cause I had so bad losses of friends and family... SO for all of you who remember how I was I am no longer that guy... just all the good things you remember.

So I jumped off an overpass and broke my hip and fractured my skull. I recovered alowly from all that then I got cancer.. and it was stage 4 I was to 90% die... but.... no fought hard like a trooper and lived. IT LIVES!

So without dragging this on, I was think about coming to participate back to the forums and servers... I don't drink/smoke/do drugs.. nothing but soda and orange juice haha... I may even try to play sometime I think I can do it...

I just want to say I think about the old crew and how you people no matter how far you are away, we were a tight family and that meant alot to me. Always has. Why do you think I am here now? The tightest community on the net.. :D

So through my struggles and redemption I would like to infuse myself partially back to the community. I have been through hell and have actually died. So this shouldn't really be too difficult.

Mo|son. 2020

Condolences for your loss and suffering. Your community needs you now more than ever, fam is fam. Rise from the ashes like a phoenix, maybe do a dance around the medicine tree, burn some sage, breath out the old pattern, breath in the life you want. Its big of you to open up, share your experience, and assess your journey. If you walked in the past, it is now time to dance instead of walk. Your heart knows the answers, you just have to listen. I’m gonna go hug a tree now.
Mr. Walnuts wrote:
Welcome back, Mo|son. I beat Stage 4 myself. Not a great club to be in, but better than the other one, yes? But with all that other shit AND 2020? Wow. Perhaps you should take another year off because I'm only just now beating some of your records.


Had my own stress and upheaval above and beyond just the vague but persistent (and real) existential dread of 2020, but, also realize others have been dealt far more imposing challenges. Hope your health (and your family) continues to be stable.
glad to hear you are still around...been a long time Sir
good to see you're still kickin
Welcome back!
Wow.. always wondered what happened to you. Welcome back!! Glad to hear everything has turned around for you. Best of luck in the future my dude, and hopefully you can hop back in the mix and show me how to play Demo :)
HOLY SHIT! A KAY-DUBBER SIGHTING!

How you been, man?!
Made my day to see your post, Mosolm. Best of luck.
A Johnny siting!
Mo|son Canadian wrote:
Mo|son. 2020

Hi Mo|. <3 to the oldies
Holy shit! A Rocky sighting! Where you been, man?
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